Super Woman Wanna Be

Yesterday was a crazy day. It was one of those days where the to-do list is so long that you need another sheet of paper. I started it right when I woke up and finished most of it by 6pm.

Meals cooked: 3 (I even made dinner)
Loads of Laundry: Lost count after 6
Time at park with kiddos: 1.5 hours
Phone calls made: 6
Errands run: 4
Photo shoots scheduled: 2
Birthday parties planned: 2 out of 3
Rooms cleaned: 4 (although at 6pm the house was trashed again)

It is hard being Superwoman. I guess that is why I am normally a slacker. I am attempting to be an organized efficient person. It is kind of like fitting a square peg into a round hole but I am trying. School is starting in month and if I don't have my stuff together I will be in the loony bin!

For all my hard work, I thought I would relax during the evening even though my list was not completely finished. My friend and old neighbor came to visit the old 'hood and we had dinner. She just had a baby so I got to meet the new addition. Her sister was also in town from Canada visiting her boy toy. We three gals sat down to a box'o wine and chatted the night away as we had lots to catch up on.

Strangely, my glass was never empty and seemed to keep refilling itself. When it was time to say good night....I was more than a little tipsy. Ugh....red wine. It always kills me. The worst part about it, is that it was a work night!!!! Needless to say, I am a bit hungover today. The way I am feeling today sucks, but the night was sooooo fun to catch up with my gal pals.

I have still been taking it easy on the running front. Staci has me walking with her at work and I enjoy it. Although I am on her shit list today because I bailed. I am not able to be upright for more than a few minutes at a time. Lesson Learned. I also stepped on the scale for the first time in a month and I am happy to say I am down 2.4! Not much...but it is a start.

Well Duh!

Today I had not one but two light bulbs go off in my head. Most people know about the stuff that I am just now learning.....but I am SLOW!

I discovered the library today. I do KNOW what they are but I never realized what a great resource they were. (DUH!) I always equated library with school and haven't stepped foot into one since college. Even when I was a student, I only used the library once as I was frantically writing my senior thesis the night before it was due (got an A as well). Since college I forgot about this resource and never gave it a second thought even though I have one less than a 1/4 mile from my house.

I have been struggling with some Photoshop techniques and I was going go buy a reference manual. I didn't really like the idea of spending $30 on a book that may or may not help me, so I thought I would go to the library. Not only did I find what I wanted, I discovered the health and fitness section. There were books on cross-training, running techniques, and best off all nutrition. I will never spend another dime on a book that I may only skim through.

My other discovery was the calories burned read out on my Garmin. For the first time I saw that my workout was no match for my sub sandwich I had for lunch. I would have had to do the same workout at least 3 times to burn off the sub that I ate. Ugh...guestimating can really bite you in the ass when trying to lose weight. It was an eye opener.

About the workout......I did a 2.5 mile run/walk today. I thought today would be a good test for the leg and foot. I only allowed myself a one mile run. It was slow but I felt no pain. For that I am grateful and I truly hope that this means I am on the mend. I am not pushing it because being injured sucks!

She's Baaaaaaaaaaack!!!

On Tuesday Staci came back to work! When I saw her I was so excited that I ran over to her cube and squealed with excitement. The first words out of her mouth were "did you bring your running shoes?" I just laughed. Seriously? She is six weeks out of surgery and she is spewing this kind of nonsense!!!??? Instead of her lunchtime workout we went out to lunch. I am an evil corrupter.

This girl means business because she made me promise that I would bring the shoes for Thursday (today). I know she can kick my ass, so I brought them. When lunch time rolled around the rain started. I thought there is no way she would make me walk. Wrong. This girl took me on an underground tour of Minneapolis. There were tunnels and steps and parking ramps all hooked together so we would not have to endure one drop of rain. Ugh. I should have known she would have an inclement weather backup plan. The sad part of our walk was that I had to huff and puff to keep up with this girl who only 6 weeks ago had 1/2 her liver taken. Wow.

I am so happy she is back. I have missed her!!! To be able to keep up with her is my motivation for today.

The Heat is On

Finally our real summer has arrived. We have had 2 days in a row in the mid 90's. It is sticky and humid. I love summer and I am happy that it is here because before you know it I will be bitching about another 6 month Minnesota winter.

Today I packed up the kids and took them to the country club (aka municipal pool). We were all going stir crazy because it got too hot to run in the backyard so we were cooped up in the A/C all day. When we got to the pool my boys jumped into the water like a couple of hoodlums. They were running and splashing and having a grand time. It didn't take them long to make a friend. The mother of their friend was standing nearby holding a baby which I later found out was 6 months old. We chit chatted and watched our kids splash in the pool. THEN whilst we were mid sentence she whips out the teat and starts feeding the munchkin. Right. In. The. Pool.

Now before people get La Leche League to jump all over me, I am an advocate of feeding from the tap. I even did it with a couple of my own kiddos. I don't even mind peeps that do it in public...if they can do it, more power to them. I personally prefer to be more discrete. But in the pool? Really? What is wrong with with the shady chair under the umbrella? I am hercking at the thought of breast milk in the water along with all the urine. *shudder*

My middle child came up to us and thought it would be funny to splash us. Unfortunately my breast feeding buddy had leave the pool to dry off her hungry baby. She did finish her feeding in a chair under that shady umbrella. I don't know what is wrong with him, it must be because he was formula fed.

Speaking of the pool.....I had to put on my bathing suit. One word.....MOTIVATION! Holy moly do I need to stay focused on this program. I was just waiting for one of the teenagers to shout "That's a huge bitch"(Thank you Duece Bigalow, Male Gigolo). Between today swim suit and yesterday's "camel toe" workout shorts, I am not likely to do a faceplant into a bag of chips. I refuse to buy new stuff.....this stuff is stretchy for crying out loud. I will deal with it until I get thin.

100th Post!!!

*Cue balloon drop and confetti*

Woweee! Times flies while having fun blogging. Eight months and 100 posts I am still going strong....at least on the blogging front. For my 100th post I don't have anything earth-shattering to blog about. I am still fat and still injured. I am trying my darnedest to make healthier choices and shut off the voice of the fat girl in me.
Someone from the Wise World of Weight Watchers, once said "being the the program is really hard, but being fat is harder". This statement just recently clicked with me. It is so true! I had a flashback to the summer of 2006. I had shed a few pounds, was pretty fit, and actually started to get comfortable in my own skin. I made a list of the benefits I enjoyed when I was living "clean".


--I could shop at "normal" stores and wear "normal" sizes
--My ass did not bounce in the opposite direction while running
--I had hot legs (Even though I still had to shed a few lbs....my legs were smokin '
--I had collar bones,cheek bones, and only one chin
--It was nice to hear how GREAT I looked
--I ran better
--I had more energy
--I wasn't as crabby
--I didn't feel like the fattest one in the room
--I didn't hate myself in photos
--I was not ashamed to be in a bathing suit
--People didn't have the look of shock on their face when I told them I was a runner

This list is just a few of things that enhanced my life two years ago. I can't blame my pregnancy for the weight gain, it is that old habits die hard. I fell backwards in a major way and I should have never allowed that hoochie mama Little Debbie into my home. There are so many things I hate about carrying this extra weight that making healthy choices should be easy. This list of positives will serve as good motivation for me to stay focused......(this list and a GINORMOUS bin of clothing that I cannot squeeze into). Ha!

In my next 100 posts, I hope to achieve at least a little movement on the weight loss
ticker. I have already proved that I can run. I want to get back to 100% and get fit.

My Goals this Week:
Walk-everyday
64 Oz of water (I have a hard time with this one)
Journal

This is unrealated to weightloss, but I feel the need to get on my soapbox.
I would like to offer up a public service announcement to anyone working in an office....
When pooping in public (work). Make sure your ID badge is not laying on the
floor, overlapping in the stall next door (like mine). Otherwise people
will know it was you that caused the anal holocaust in the bathroom.
Furthermore people like me will point and laugh when they see you, as
you will forever be know as the office ass blaster. Out of courtesy to
other users...please flush 2 times and use Lysol. Thanks in advance.

(UGH....seriously I work with a bunch of pigs)

Am I Dreaming???

After only 2 chiropractic adjustments my foot feels pretty good. I still have some tender spots but I am not having excruciating pain that makes me walk like a gimp. Maybe it is my imagination but I swear I am feeling better. I am trying not to jinx anything so I am being the ideal patient but not doing much activity, icing, and doing my exercises. Toe tapping and tracing the alphabet with my feet have become second nature. I was supposed to have another appointment today but I had to cancel.

I had to cancel my appointment with the miracle worker today because I was in HELL!!!!! I volunteered to work the financial system support line. I work for an extremely large organization and our financial platform just converted to a new one. Everything that you could dream of going wrong, did go wrong. Peeps were calling the line hyperventilating and flipping out! My job was to log the calls and email while bitching under my breath about crazy people. More than once I had a spontaneous outburst saying "IT IS JUST NUMBERS PEOPLE....NUMBERS! NO ONE IS GOING TO DIE!! CHILL THE EFF OUT!!!!!!" The poor people that normally work in that department are overworked, under trained, and just do not get paid enough to put up with that BS. Although I have no real power, I helped my new peeps out by putting assholes to the bottom of the cue. *evil grin* It is so crazy that when I left for the day today, there were 400+ calls that needed to be assigned to the proper channels. Ouch. OK....so my job isn't that bad.

In my effort to recomit to this weight loss, I stepped on the scale for the first time in week. I can't even bring myself to post the digits. I will just say that my little bought of food poisoning did NOTHING for the weightloss. DAMNITALLTOHELL! So in the mean time I am doing my PT exercise and googling Weight Watchers Core recipes (LOL at the idea of me cooking).

Wednesday's Health Epiphany

I think I am in love! I love my new chiropractor. I got another adjustment today and I feel great. Today I after I was adjusted she did some muscle work on my strained calf. OMG.....it was the WORST pain I have ever had in my life!!!! I think I actually blacked out. She said that I have a pretty bad muscle strain and that was causing the shin pain....not shin splints. OK, I admit I am not always right on WebMD. I am going in again for some more muscle work and then with a little more rest I should (hope) I will be back in line to start exercising.

Did you notice I said "exercising" as opposed to running and training? I am starting from the ground up. I am trying something new called building a base and getting fit. I hear it works!! ha! I have nothing to prove by going out an running a long distance race with very little training. I *know* I can do it it and I have done it several times, but it is really really dumb. It takes me a few times (OK a hundred times) to make stupid mistakes before I learn. This whole sitting on the sidelines injured crap really sucks. So when I get the green light to start "exercising", I will be doing a garden variety of activities cardio, stretching, and strength. A regular running routine is my goal. For now, I dusted of the balance ball and I am doing my PT exercises.

I am taking the same approach to my diet. I am working on cleaning it up. I am not focusing on how much weight I want to lose, I just need to eat better. Hopefully the weight loss will be an added benefit. After this bought of food poisoning, I am seriously thinking of becoming a vegetarian. I know that will never happen because I am a carnivore to the core, but I am at least going to be more picky about what I eat. *shudder* I never ever want this crud again! I have never seen my husband so green in my entire life. Thankfully we are getting back to normal.

I am fully aware that my so called epiphany is common sense to most people. I am living the definition of insanity as I keep doing the same thing over and over expecting different results. I am injured (again) and my traineo ticker has not moved in months. Hmmm, why do I even question why I am not making progress. I am not allowing myself to sign up for anything longer than a 5k for a few months and I am cutting down on the processed garbage that I eat. Now that I am not nauseous every time I see food, I am coming up with my meal plan and I am getting thy ass to the grocery store tonight if it kills me!

Did this new chiropractor crack some sense into me?