Thursday, January 31, 2008

Sugar, Sugar


I didn't realize how much sugar has a hold on me. I am only in day 2 of removing sweets from my diet and I feel like I am going crazy. I am having withdrawl symptoms and my body is going into shock. I am a true junkie! I might be putting a dramatic spin on my self-imposed sugar ban, but I do believe that my body is reacting to the changes I am making. I think my husband is ready to give my an animal tranquilizer because I am so moody.

I can honestly say that I have become dependent on the sweet things that I nibble on during the day. A chunk of chocolate or a slice of cake would give me the bursts of energy that I need. The more I eat, the more I need. I am surprised at how often I reached for sugar laden snacks. It is legal crack in my world. I almost think that quitting smoking was easier than cutting out junk food. At least smoking has become socially unexceptable.

I did ok today staying away from the garbage, but I am going to be tested this weekend. I am throwing a shower for a girlfriend and there will not only be one cake, but two of them! Cake is my weakness. I live for the stuff. Sunday I have a breakfast date at our favorite pancake joint. It is going to take everything in me not to get something that I can load up with syrup.

*deep breaths*

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Getting Friendly with the Treadmill

I am almost afraid to say this, but I actually almost LIKED my treadmill workout yesterday. I did a 5 min warm up and 5 cool down an then was able to run at a pretty good clip (fast for me) for 20 minutes. I could have kept going however, I only have 30 minutes of workout time before heading into the office.

I borrowed an idea from Yasmin, a fellow blogger. I read in her blog about how she adjusted the incline level on the treadmill to 1.0 rather than 0.0. Unless it is my mind playing tricks on me, I didn't feel as much stress on my knees and hips. I was also able to run faster than I usually do on the machine. Thanks Yasmin for the suggestion!

I am trying something new on the weight loss front. I am cutting out sweets. Pop, candy, cake, donuts....GONE. These items don't really go hand and hand with my weight loss journey but I always allowed points for them. I am starting this venture today. I tried to make yesterday day one, but someone at work handed me a plate with a slice of cake on it. I could not say no. I was like I was an alcoholic being handed a drink. I hope by getting off of the junk, saying no will be easier to do.

It is another fun inside day in Minnesota. Wind chill is close to -40 degrees today. Argh. Monday I was outside in just a sweatshirt as it was pushing 50 degrees...above zero. Today there are schools that are closed because of the temperature. WHY DO I LIVE HERE!?!?!?!?!


Sunday, January 27, 2008

The Power of a Picture

Gosh, another week has flown by. My daughter's baptism was today and I just got done uploading the pictures from the event. This is one of only a few events that I find myself actually in a picture. I am usually the one behind the camera. I wish I would have stayed out of the pictures this time around.

What a wake up call! Wow, I am fat. Not that I should be shocked. I know I am fat because of the way my clothes fit, I know I am fat by what the scale says. But I always thought in the back of my head that I wasn't THAT bad. Pictures do not lie and I did not like what I saw.

I am trying not to piss and moan about being fat. I know what I need to do to start losing this weight, I just do not have the focus. Now that I have seen the results of eating Cheetos and ice cream for dinner, I am scared straight. I am done complaining about being fat. I was looking for motivation to lose weight.....I found it.

Running has kind of taken a back seat this week. I did my standard treadmill workouts on Tuesday and Thursday. Saturday I did a 2.25 mile run with my husband. He got a cramp and took a short cut home and I still beat him. Yes, I get off silly little competitions like that. I did not run today because of the baptism and company at our house.

I have only 3 weeks until the first 5k of the year. I think I will be just fine even though I have had a rough couple of weeks.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Hungover and Still Cold

When I made the decision not to do an Arctic run yesterday, I headed straight for the the liquor cabinet and curled up on the couch to watch movies. It is what every good Minnesotan does when the weather turns bitterly cold.

The bottle of wine and 2 mixed drinks was probably a bit excessive. I admit I cannot handle my liquor like I did a few years ago. Needless to say, I am nursing one hell of a hangover today. A greasy brunch didn't even cure it.

No running again today and I admit I fell off my plan to eat well. I will be climbing back on the wagon tomorrow. Spring is coming and my skinny wardrobe is hanging in my closet taunting me.

For now, I am off to take some Tylenol to get rid of this headache.

Saturday, January 19, 2008


It is beyond cold. The thermometer reads -5 and add the wind chill it is closer to -30 degrees below zero. This is the type of cold the takes your breath away when you step outside. It makes your eyes freeze and your skin burn within seconds of exposure. It is that bone chilling kind of cold that stays with you even if you are snuggled up in a warm house. This is the time of year I always ponder why I live in Minnesota.

Needless to say, I skipped my run. The thought of frostbite and slipping on the ice didn't really appeal to me today. I will just have to work harder they next time I go out.

Honestly, a little part of me wanted to face the elements. My running co-worker makes a point to run on the coldest and hottest days of the year. I know she was out there today. I wanted to do it just to have some bragging rights under my belt.

I truly think I am becoming a runner, at least mentally. Only a runner would think exercising in sub-zero temps would be worth boasting about.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

A Week in Review

Today I ran 2.26 miles non-stop. I wanted to quit because I was getting tired. I plugged along, made mini goals, and finished it. I am very excited that I finally completed the route I have named the "short loop". If I keep this up, I will be ready for my first 5k of the season on Feb 16th. I feel like my running mojo is coming back.

I don't know if my running success today was a fluke. This last week was tough on the running front. I ran on Saturday and it was just OK. Thursday I ran, but had a stomach bug. Tuesday was on the dread mill, and I could only run 6 minutes out of 30. I am happy that my progress is continuing despite the so-so week of training.

On another good note, I have graduated from physical therapy! I am regaining some core strength. Three pregnancies and six abdominal surgeries left me with nothing. I can now get up off the floor without having to crawl to a piece of furniture for assistance. Too bad they don't give tummy tucks as a PT graduation gifts because I sure could use one!

I am also down 5lbs since the start of the new year. I am heading in the right direction but I still need to focus. I have been doing half-assed journaling, not counting the points I am eating, and chugging wine like it is water. I am going to spin dry myself this week and see if it has a positive effect on the scale. I am chalking my 5lb loss up to good luck, and I know it is going to run out if I don't start behaving myself.

Saturday, January 5, 2008

A Milestone Met

What you gon' do with all that junk?All that junk inside your trunk?

That is what was going through my head during my entire run today. It seems that all 9lbs I gained over the holidays went straight to my ass. I could tell while I was running that there was a lot more jiggle. Note for next time, I must wear sausage casing undergarments to prevent this.

Right now I may be heavy and jiggle like Jell-O, but I am happy to say that finally broke my 1 mile wall! I didn't stop at 1 mile today. I ran a total of 2.26 and I only walked two blocks. I know I didn't break any distance records, but it is progress and every week I hope to go a bit further.

This milestone was a big one for me. No matter how many miles I am in shape to run, the first one is always the hardest. Now that I know I can make a full mile physically, I know I can push myself to the next level. I have about 6 weeks to work up to 3 miles until my first 5K of the new year. It is totally doable.

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Welcome 2008!

A few weeks ago, the Today Show had a segment on keeping holiday weight gain at bay. They said the average person typically gains about 7lbs between Thanksgiving and New Year's. I gained 9! What can I say, I am an over-achiever. This time of year is not for eating carrots.

When the calendar changed to January 1st, my give a damn came back (like it does every year). I have been religiously tracking my food and making exercise a priority. I have done 2 runs and a strength workout. I even ran outside on New Year's Day in the subzero weather.

I have challenged my self to make it one month to follow Weight Watchers without falling off the program. As long as I don't go over my allowance and follow the 8 heathy guidlines I am in the running.

So far 2008 is off to a good start.