Friday, February 29, 2008
Not only did I flipout about being stuck in frozen tundra hell, I completely blew my top about being so busy and not being able to compete all the goals that I have set for myself. I have set so many unrealistic goals that God himself could not meet them.
Today, I am slightly more sane and I am scaling back my list to be one mortals can accomplish. I also realized that I cannot look at the big picture because it overwhelms me. I have 50lbs to lose, a marathon I want to run, and a business I hope to get off the ground....and I want it all to happen right now! Everything seems so unattainable when I look at how far I have to go to get to the end result. I have decided to not put time restrictions on my goals. I am going to focus on losing 5lbs at a time, running one day at a time, and the rest will fall into place. I go through this every winter when I spend every waking hour indoors. I get crazy.
I have not worked out all week. I did get up one morning to go to the gym at 5am. I can't call my 30 minute walk on the treadmill a workout considering my grandmother could have walked at a faster clip than I was doing. I only did about 1.5 miles (in 30 minutes!).
Today, Spring was in the air. Not much longer in winter hell.
Monday, February 25, 2008
I was so inspired by all the athletes and their stories. Their determination and completion of their goals made me very excited for all my upcoming races, including the full marathon in November. I do have to say, although I am ready to experience the rush of racing again, I was reminded of how much blood, sweat, and tears go into a training schedule. Like anything else, it is something to take day by day.
This movie was something only a runner could appreciate. When I announced that I was going to be seeing this flick people either yawned or rolled their eyes. I came home wanted to rehash the highlights with my husband. It was no surprise that his face went blank as I was giving him the rundown. It is a similar reaction that he gets from me when he spouts off football stats or updates me on current events (I am not a news junkie).
It has been one week since I have completed a real workout. This bug that infected our house really got us down. I am feeling better but I am still exhausted. I took it easy this weekend and did a run/walk around Lake Nokomis. I certainly hope my energy level returns soon. There is one more week until the official training program starts for the Get in Gear 10K. I plan on starting this week for good measure.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
I am struggling with eating healthy lately and I can feel my waistband getting tighter. So today I am taking it literally one hour at a time being on plan. I have not been planning my meals, bringing my lunch, or putting much effort in at dinner. My schedule has been so crazy that I have gotten lazy. I am back to journaling and trying to make better choices. It is just amazing how fast a downward spiral starts when I stop recording.
I did not complete a workout again today. I am just exhausted and trying to catch up from being sick. It is supposed to be nice this weekend and it will be a good time to ease back into running. We were supposed to start a spinning workout class this week as well. I am mentally preparing for next week because it looks brutal!
Tonight is the encore presentation of Spirit of the Marathon and I have my ticket! I am very excited to go. The previews look great and people have raved about it. My husband just rolls his eyes at me because I have been talking about seeing this for months. He had absolutely no interest in going. I guess only a runner can appreciate this movie.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
- I signed up for the Gary Bjorklund 1/2 Marathon in June at 5AM this morning. I find out if I get in March 5th. I am wondering why???!!! A momentary lapse of judgement.
- I walked several blocks in -30 windchill to get coffee. I forgot my gloves and my fingers are just now starting to defrost.
- I am still feeling sick but relieved to be at work because it is quiet here and I can sit down.
- I ate McDonald's for breakfast and soup for lunch. At least one meal was in line with Weight Watchers.
- I had a phone conference for my 3 year old who is in preschool. They told me he is struggling because he cannot write his name yet......HE IS 3! I sent him to preschool to have fun with other kids. I will be concerned when he is 7 and can't write his name.
- I have a photography class after work tonight and I am I dreading showing my work to the class because I was kind of lazy with the assignment.
- It is my godson's birthday today. They are not having cake tonight, so I am not going to visit. (only joking)
- I am wondering what I am going to wear in Vegas when I go next month.
- Oh yeah, I convinced my husband that it was a great idea for me to go to Vegas to the Wedding and Portrait Photographers International Convention. Evidently, I have been a big enough pain in the ass and he gave me his blessing to go. He also realizes he will be a single parent to the kids for 4 days. I bet I will be paid back when golf season hits. Eh....still worth it.
- Going back to #8, I am wondering if I have enough time to lose 30lbs before I go to Vegas so I can fit into my spring wardrobe. Unless I drink hot lemon water, eat nothing but lettuce, and workout 10 hours a day....it is not going to happen.
Monday, February 18, 2008
The flu bug has invaded our house. Everyone has it. I think I know what hell on earth is. We are all miserable, we all have the body aches and queasy stomachs, and we are all whiney and pathetic. The worst part is the baby has the same stuff we do. Unfortunately she is a bit of a diva and wants to be held all day. She is finicky about how she is held. We must stand,rock and bounce, sitting is not an option. I have to admit, I think I am the whinest person in my family today. I just hate being sick.
My 3 year old is the healthiest one of our group and the only one with an appetite. His dinner consisted of half of a left over McDonald's cheeseburger, potato chips, and strawberries. The rest of us decided it was a bad idea to eat. Should I get fitted now for the mother of the year crown?
Workouts this week are going to be easy, if at all. I am bummed out because tomorrow we were supposed to start our spinning class. It is not going to happen and I know am planning on being out of the office tomorrow. Right now it is a workout just standing upright holding the munchkin.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
I started feeling fatigued about 3/4 of the way and my legs were cramping up a bit. I wanted to walk more than anything but my goal was to run the entire way. So rather than walking, I slowed my pace down. Staci was so kind to stick with me. She is in WAY better shape than I am and she could have just taken off at her own pace. She helped me get through the tough part. Somehow I got a small burst of energy at the very end and was able to finish strong.
(and hangover cure)
Thursday, February 14, 2008
It is a funny story now even though I was heartbroken for those 2 whole weeks. I only hold it over his head because I am too cheap to buy cards and chocolates. Plus, we are not the most romantic couple. Rather than lovers (that word makes me shudder), we are more like immature kids that show affections by pulling each other's finger or slinging insults as terms of endearment. These conversation hearts are right up our ally.
Snap, Crackle and Pop, anyone else find them kind of creepy?
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Now that is it getting lighter out in the morning, I think I am ready to add Wednesdays to my early running routine. It is a great feeling to be able to cross the workout off the list before I get started with my day. Plus, I don't have to get up at 5AM. I can sleep in....until 6AM that is. There isn't a lot of cars on the road at that hour and my neighborhood is quiet. With the exception of a face full of school bus exhaust, it was a perfect run today.
I tried something new today. I ran while concentrating on controlling my core muscles. As I have mentioned before, I am incredibly weak in this area because of all the times I have been under the knife. It was tough to control. I had a harder time regulating my breathing and keeping the form. Unless my mind is playing tricks on me, I felt less pressure on my knees and hips. Is this something that all runners do? Is this something I should have been doing all along? Whatever the case, I am going to work on using these muscles more to see if it improves my overall running.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
I don't know if the weather is draining me or my insane schedule, but I am exhausted. I have been sleeping well, but I can't seem to wake up. I got to the gym this morning before 6AM but I could not get going on the treadmill. I ended up doing a 30 minute walk instead of running. I was happy that I got some activity, but it wasn't what I set out to do.
I did a face plant into the sugar bowl yesterday. My detox was on a roll and I blew it. You name it, I ate it. I need an intervention because I was eating the kids' leftover Christmas candy. YUCK. I need to work a treat into my week somehow otherwise I will be facing this problem often. Eh, live and learn.
Our vet gave her about a year to live when she was diagnosed........That was almost 5 years ago. She literally is the million dollar dog. I will be very sad and the kids will be devastated when she is gone, but I won't miss the vet bills or the monthly medicine costs.
I know this isn't a real postive post. I am just in my annual winter funk. Now that the weather is supposed to be in the positive digits and it is staying lighter out longer, my mood will improve.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
We are staying at my parents house this weekend. I packed all my running stuff; the shoes, cold weather gear, and my Ipod. I have plenty of people to watch the kids and I don't have a time limit. At this point the temperature is still above zero. It is an ideal day for a run. But here I sit. I just keep finding things to do that are keeping me from getting my workout in.
I am not sure why I am putting it off. I KNOW I will feel energized when I am done. I need to get my run in because next weekend is the Valentine's 5K. I am weighing in on Monday and my workouts this weekend are going to be tied to what the scale is going to give me. I NEED to do this run. These reasons should be pushing me out the door right now.
Laziness is working for me right now.
I did do my run today and I am glad I did it. I ran about 2.5 miles. It was fun to switch up my route and see the old neighborhood. I am also glad I ran when I did because it was in the 20's when I went out, now it is about -40 below zero with the wind chill.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
I may be a morning person, but I am not a 5 AM person. Getting up at this insane hour is tough for me. I have to set 2 alarms and have my workout clothes within arms reach. It is just easier to hit snooze and curl up under the covers and drift back to sleep. I am literally pushed out of bed by my husband who is annoyed at the alarm going off every 5 minutes (the alarm is on his side of the bed). Bleary eyed, I stumble around to get dressed and get out the door.
Although I hate getting up in the morning to workout. Once I am fully awake, I actually like being up before the birds. Getting up at 5AM adds another level to the running insanity. Not everyone is willing to do it. I like how quiet and peaceful everything is. I also like the fact that the gym is never crowded at that hour and I never have to sign up for a treadmill. The good benefits outweigh the bad and I am getting ready to add another day to my early morning routine.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
That incident made me run faster because I was irritated. When I got home and called the company to voice my concern about the rude gesture and extreme lack of professionalism for someone representing their company. I am sure their customer service people were rolling their eyes at my phone call tattling on one of their technicians. But I felt like I needed to piss and moan about it, especially since a good chunk of my hard earned income goes to the Direct TV bill each month.
I am not sensitive or easily offended. The truth is, I have been getting flipped off quite a bit lately. It usually occurs at least once a run. Because the sidewalks are so slick, I run on the street opposite traffic. I am in no way interfering with oncoming vehicles. You would not believe the people who honk with distain, swerve to "scare" you, or in this case today, flip me the bird. Why do people have it out for runners? I don't understand why this is even an issue, I sure hope it is not people reacting to what I look like in running tights.
Despite the asshole, the run went pretty well. I went almost 3 miles at what felt like a good pace. I am still not officially timing my runs, I base it on how I feel. I had only had one quick walk break that lasted about a minute. We have less than 2 weeks until our first 5K of the season. I am so close to being able to do the distance without stopping. I will be ready by then.
Even though I had a great run, I had WAY too much caffeine this morning. It made me feel jittery and sick. My morning wake up cocktail is a Cafe Americano (4 shots of esspresso and hot water!). Normally it doesn't do much to me, but today I thought my heart was going to explode. Might be time to tone down the caffeine before a run.