Friday, February 29, 2008

Leaving Funkytown

I have been MIA for about week because I have been crazy busy and in my annual winter funk. This time of year is always hard for me. I truly thought this year would be different if I stayed busy, and I mean so busy that I wake up one morning and winter is over. Well that theory was blown to shreds. February Freakfest 2008 was sure a 5 alarm meltdown. My husband was ready to call in for backup to to haul me to a padded room.

Not only did I flipout about being stuck in frozen tundra hell, I completely blew my top about being so busy and not being able to compete all the goals that I have set for myself. I have set so many unrealistic goals that God himself could not meet them.

Today, I am slightly more sane and I am scaling back my list to be one mortals can accomplish. I also realized that I cannot look at the big picture because it overwhelms me. I have 50lbs to lose, a marathon I want to run, and a business I hope to get off the ground....and I want it all to happen right now! Everything seems so unattainable when I look at how far I have to go to get to the end result. I have decided to not put time restrictions on my goals. I am going to focus on losing 5lbs at a time, running one day at a time, and the rest will fall into place. I go through this every winter when I spend every waking hour indoors. I get crazy.

I have not worked out all week. I did get up one morning to go to the gym at 5am. I can't call my 30 minute walk on the treadmill a workout considering my grandmother could have walked at a faster clip than I was doing. I only did about 1.5 miles (in 30 minutes!).

Today, Spring was in the air. Not much longer in winter hell.


Stace said...

Your grandma! LOL
You can do it Carly! Baby steps!
I'm going for a run now, you should go too. Try for at least 2 miles, crank it out, slow and low!
One foot in front of the other - you can do it!
I'll be pulling for you!

Viv said...

That is the only way to look at the WL. I hear ya though, I wish the weight would have been gone, ummm yesterday hell last month would have been nice. LOL!
Hang in there, it will all happen for u!