I am back to square one. My pants are tight, the scale has really awful numbers on it, and I huff and puff going up the steps. I am just a couple of pounds from where I started my weight loss journey. Also, I have not run since the 10k that was over 2 weeks ago.
My moment of truth came when my 3 year old called me fat. I offered to break his other leg if he didn't zip it, but he was right. I *AM* fat and I am not doing anything about it except making pathetic excuses. Little stresses sent me into a horrible downward spiral and now I have to start over.
I know I have blogged about how I am going to lose weight and get serious. I told my husband that this time I REALLY mean it and he just rolled his eyes. In order to start making these changes, I pulled out the book I got sucker punched into buying and I am starting to actually use it. The two things that I have got out of it so far is that I must make time to work out and that life happens so have a back-up plan.
My plan is to get up before the birds to get my workout in. I am going to set my alarm for 5AM every morning and just do it. After 21 days it should be a habit, right? My better half is not going to be happy while I develop this routine because the alarm is on his side of the bed (evil grin). Not only will it be great to have that part of my day crossed off the list, but the endorphins from my runner's high should keep me slightly more sane when my kiddos drive me nuts. If my plan fails, my back up is to get it done before I get to go to bed.
It is too bad that I had to gain all my weight back to learn that life happens. If I got this stressed out from being busy, annoyed with crazy PTA moms, and EFK's bone breaking antics, I am screwed if something real comes about. I plan to regroup before face planting into a bag of chips.
Now the real challenge comes with running. My half marathon is about 5 weeks away. I need to get serious and focus on training. I ran a whole .5 miles yesterday before I died and had to walk home. I have pulled out miracle mileage before and I will do it again but I have a lot of work to do.