Now that I am officially on the Weight Watching bandwagon I am doing everything I can think of to make this my last time going through the program. I pulled out my old program materials and reviewed my notes and journals. I looked at recent pictures that are screaming to be burned. Then I pulled out my photos of when I was well on my way to goal. Even though I had some more weight to lose I was getting pretty comfortable in my own skin.
The Motivational Photo
This photo was taken in May 2006 right before a race. I was about 10lbs from goal and I was starting to feel great. I could shop in normal stores and buy regular sizes. I was about a size 10 here. This picture is on my fridge to be my motivation to stay away from the ice cream.
A Tale of a Fat Bridesmaid
The photo of me in the dress is my proudest accomplishment to date...this one even out does finishing my first marathon. OK..that might be pushing it but the fact that this dress ended up on my body was nothing short of a miracle.
I was a bridesmaid in my friend Carly's wedding. We had originally ordered dresses from Ann Taylor and I was beyond thrilled because for the first time in my life I was able to shop there. Not only was I able to shop there, I bought I size 10 dress! I don't know what the reason was but the Ann Taylor dresses were not going to work out for the wedding so my friend picked another dress. This was to be ordered directly from the bridal shop.
I was bummed about my first purchase from Ann Taylor not going to work out, but I was excited about the idea of not have to pay for extra material for a bridesmaid dress just because I was fat. We didn't have a lot of time to get measured and unfortunately I didn't go in to get officially sized. I knew that these dresses ran small from my many experiences as a bridesmaid, so I ordered up 2 sizes. I thought I was being so smart knowing that these dresses ran small.
The dresses were delivered and I went to try it on. I was gleeful because I had been following Weight Watchers and I dropped a few more pounds since we ordered the dresses. I was sure that this dress would fall off of me. I couldn't get it on fast enough....but then I couldn't get it on at all. The zipper would even come close to zipping. That is when I had a full blown meltdown and everyone in the world knew about my dress dilemma.
The wedding was a month away. The bride had no clue of my issue and I had to lose several inches to get into this dress. The shitty part of bridesmaid dresses is that once you order, it is yours. Now I was stuck with this dress. I couldn't order another because it took 8 weeks to deliver. I did what every rational person does and I tried on the dress every day and Googled Anorexia tips. The eating disorder just wasn't going to work for me. I just spend a good chunk of change on braces and I wanted to keep my teeth. I was out of options so I just stuck with Weight Watchers like I was supposed to and a month later I fit into the dress and it worked out wonderful.*
*It didn't really work out wonderful. I tried on the dress one too many times and the zipper got stuck. My hubby came up with pliers and we had to break the damn thing to get it off. I was off to the tailor to get a new zipper the next day!
**what you don't see in the photo is the ginormous underwear holding all the fat in place. Also at one point I had to take the dress off to breathe. I looked good for photos and that was all that mattered.
I shared this story about the dress because I reviewed my notes from that time period and I didn't have to do anything dramatic to shed a few lbs. I still had my junk food fixes and I still had my cocktails. The three things that stood out to me the most in my journal was:
1. The fact that I kept a journal
2. I was religious about exercise
3. I made sensible choices MOST of the time but splurged when I wanted to. When I splurged, I got right back on track.
I am going to do what I did then and hope for similar results!
I walked 4.36 miles whilst pushing Baby Diva. I felt great when I was done, but I would rather be running.